Rationalized Self Sabotage

Addiction is such a cunning and baffling disease. It is so tricky and manipulative. It can sneak up on you at any time. The extent to which my addiction went trying to convince me it was the right decision is hard to comprehend. Looking back I struggle to understand how I considered these thoughts to be rational. I was slowly killing myself and pushing everyone that actually cared about me away. My addiction went to any length to separate me from those people that were actually trying to help me and cared. My addiction pulled the wool completely over my eyes to reality. In my mind I was thinking completely clear and my decisions were solid and evidence based and rational. It really was the rationalization of self-sabotage.